5. The Dark Sun Shine
Every thing, every
human notion is so self-explanatory when you realize what that person is going
through. You have to just stop thinking from a single frame of mind and start
thinking otherwise. Each and every person has the capability to understand. Ignorance
is quite the opposite. In times of distress or pain, you look for means to
resolve the emotional conflicts inside you even if that something is unnatural,
or uncanny. I am no different. My ignorance was deceptive to my sense of
understanding which makes me regret nothing as I am at peace with my notions
and for what it were.
I could still hear
them rumble, the clouds. I remember the night, clear as day, and the feelings,
like a tempest. Every one has that moment for when they break for the very
first time. That night was mine. Now I know what it feels to be completely
shattered and worn out. After all that time, all that heart-ache and all that
headstrong, I found my sun. Although it was a dark one, it was tempting.
Considering my atheist beliefs, there was no evil darkness or almighty light
and my nyctophilia led me to sink in this Dark Sunshine. She was always there;
she was always appealing and captivating but I held back. Today, it felt as if
I was giving into this Dark Sunshine, forgetting what I was loyal to in the
past. My wounds are still healing; scars, still fading… but this audacity to be
ripped off all over again is intriguing. She is passion. She is hunger. And
that is what she brings out of me. Somehow, what once I thought of light is now
just a word-sake and somehow, this newly found love for Dark Sunshine is what I
wished to be in, always.
In my younger years,
I read a lot. One of my inspirations was the author called John Green. In one
of his novels he wrote, 'People were created to be loved. Things were created
to be used. The reason why the world is in chaos, is because things are being
loved and people are being used.' But what if people want to be used just for
the sake of having a temporary feel of acceptance; a temporary feeling of being
loved. As I keep saying, we are not that hard to decipher. One has to just
observe with no judgements. I wont deny being on either sides of this coin, nor
I will hesitate to choose - I spent what felt like years, in this dark
eternity. Just when I thought I was dripping with the shining Sun, this
judgmental and perceptive society called it a Dark one!
Dark Sunshine is
how,
I had been unfolding
life
One blindfold at a
time!
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